I have to admit something here. I’m terrified. I’m feeling really deep anxiety that it’s causing my heart to race and I’m having trouble trying to get to sleep.
I’ll tell you why, in just a moment. First of all, I really just need to get this off of my chest. I know that fear is a really bad, negative emotion, and just by feeling this way I am sending out a negative rift in my universe. I’m actually shaking while I’m typing this - and I’m hoping by writing it here, that I’ll be able to go back to bed and sleep well, and allow the positive feelings back into my system.
I’m terrified because 1) My driver’s license is expiring on February 20. I don’t have a full license yet. In Ontario, we use a graduated licensing system and when I was 25, I finally decided to take my written test for the first level of my license. By passing the written test, I was now allowed to drive with someone who had a full license and at least 5 years of driving experience. It wasn’t until Heidi was 6 months old (I was 27-28) that I decided it might be beneficial for me to go for the second phase (driving test) of my driver’s license - so I could drive alone (much better than carting a stroller on the public transit). Now, I have less than 2 months to take my highway road test so I can have a full driver’s license.
I am confident with my driving abilities, but what I’m afraid of is that: a) I do go over the speed limit; b) I don’t have that much experience driving on highways; and c) I CANNOT LOSE MY LICENSE and go back to PHASE 1! Not with a two-year-old. Not with a job that is 1.5 hours away via public transit. There is NO ROOM for failure. And this… is making me panic like crazy.
And my second problem is: I have a mammogram scheduled for Wednesday the 7th of January. Either way, I know I have a tumor in my breast and it has to go away SOMEHOW. I’m praying that it’s benign but I’m worried about hearing the results from my doctor. I’m worried about treatment. This is really scary for me.
So, I got these off of my chest - and I just let out a deep sigh. Hopefully I have enough positive energy inside me to pass my test and face whatever the results are that I get from my doctor. It would just be nice if there wasn’t so much pressure right now. It’s the beginning of a new year - I would have really preferred to have started off with less worries.
You should book your driving test NOW. Then, *knock on wood* if you did fail, you still have time to take another test.
I have to agree with Theresa. Book the test as soon as possible so that’s one less thing you have to worry about.
There’s another problem. Dan and I tried to book our tests about 2 weeks ago, and although there were a lot of dates available for Jan, you need to pay in advance now. We don’t have any room on our credit cards right now.
I might end up taking a trip over to the MTO to see if they will accept cash/debit. Ridiculous.
Call them… today… I’m sure if you went in person you could pay in advance. I don’t remember Jason having to do that, but I could be wrong… it was a year ago so my memory is hazy
Or, transfer money onto your credit card so you have the room. It should only take two days to clear…
I have a feeling that both your driver’s test and your mammogram will turn out just fine. I will be praying for you on Wednesday. *hugs*
I would take the test ASAP because that’s something finite and you can get it done and over with. We have GDL’s here, too. I think they’re ridiculous.
Sending my prayers to you and yours with your upcoming doctor’s appointment.
oh my, lots going on! Prayers coming your way…
I’m sure both will turn out fine, but I will keep you in my thoughts<3